And so it begins...

So I am going to start by explaining my blog title, because I think it explains a lot about the path I am embarking on. Fifi, (or 'Fifi La Friponne' to be exact) is my Burlesque stage name, something I have recently acquired as part of my Burlesque classes. These were taken up on a complete whim because its something I have been interested in a while, and when I emailed Laura (aka Miss Felicity Fox) she told me I could start classes that very evening! Now, I am not confident at all, and going to something new like this where I knew no-one was scary as hell. But the class was such fun and I started to like the person I could become when I put on my heels and tried (and failed) to walk with grace and poise! I was given the name Fifi from picking it out of a hat, and chose my 'surname' as it is the French for 'Minx', and I thought this would be a good place to start! Its been 3 weeks now, and I am loving the classes, the way I can step into Fifi more and more at will (with the help of my beautiful shoes and corset!) and be someone more...powerful I suppose. In control. 

This new part of my life has also come at the time of complete (and frankly scary) change in my life. First of all, I am starting my first teaching job in 2 days, something which I have trained three long years to achieve. I am no longer a student, but a 'grown-up' embarking on the big wide world. The second major change is the fact I have just left a 5 year relationship. After a whole lot of soul searching, guilt, fear and trepidation, I took leap of faith needed to talk to my partner and explain that things weren't the same anymore. I was so sad, and mourned the loss of something I used to have. But I was also excited about where my life might go now, and terrified that this big wide world might be about to close in on me. Its been a hard week of mixed feelings, fear, elation and down-right confusion. I am in the lucky position to still be getting on with my ex, but its a hard relationship to negotiate and we are still finding our feet.

I just felt like, at this time when everything is changing, it would be good to write how I feel, what is going on and maybe keep a record of these exciting months to come. Its not going to be easy, and I may falter, but this life is my own and I intend on making the most of it.